Wednesday, 3 November 2010

DD Says Happy Bday Appa

The most awaiting time has arrived. DD started framing sentences and able to repeat what we say. Great to hear that mazhalai.. Luv u sweety.. She is very keen to learn things nowadays.. Though i got her a set of books to read when she is interested 3-4months back.. Never insisted her to study.. I wanted her to get the habit to study on her own rather than being pushed to learn things..

She is now all set go to read and learn new things.. started picking up the books she wanna read and ask someone to teach for her.. She gets very much excited when she is able to repeat what we say... She says A for Apple, B for Ball, C for Cat, D for Doggie, E for Egg, F for Fish.. only this much would be clear :-) others would be in her own language in own world where no one can understand it.. Luv to hear u saying that sweety.. Wanna know the extend she loves books.. here is the pic..

See how cute she is hugging the book and sleeping. So pretty sweety.. Luv u tons..

If any elderly people look into this picture they will kill me as they will always they that we should never take picture of a kid when they sleep..

Wanna capture this moment so skipped the myth.. :-)

The book is on Safety.. she can now relate things to the environment.. For example say there is a picture in the book as "Stay away when you burst crackers". When we were bursting crackers last day for time pass she was holding it all away saying it "Amma suttudum !!"
So proud of you sweety..

She started missing her dad... she is saying as "Appa Kanom", "Appa Office", "Appa poyitta" kind of words in middle of sleep.. She might not be able to express things as we do.. sometimes takes his dress and say appa.. May be that is the way of her to express it.

She very Keenly look into what we do and try to imitate that.. say keeping bindi.. keeping kumkum.. combing hair.. keeping clip.. appling cream.. wearing specs.. etc.,

All that we do she wanna do it for her too.. she is going crazy nowadays for bindi and kammal.. Just see how nicely she is wearing specs of mine..


For sarawathi pooja made her wear paavadai sattai.. and took her to temple.. she is the most enjoyable person to go to temple.. she is used to going to temple with mom especially and along with dad occassionally. Had gud time in temple and good darshan as well.. DD in paavadai sattai making her doll to sleep :-)
DD was so happy to see her dad once he was back. Then i realised how much she missed him though she wasnt able to communicate it back. DD was enjoying being with her dad with all the toys bought for her.

She goes crazy for books and her dad got her a learning kit as per her wiish. she started reading it from the first day since she got that. :-)

Wednesday, 13 October 2010

How much i miss u

I want to hold your hands and walk a mile
dont want to miss u, even a while

My life is so beautiful coz
Dear, its you.. My LIFE

Hug me for my worries to die
my tears to dry and
my loneliness to fly

It hurts me to know
how i sometimes can be little selfish
when it comes to you

I am getting sentimental over you !
for god sake explain me why all these.

I miss you every moment of the day,
I keep me awake just to listen you,
I keep me empty just for you to fill,
I keep me alive just to see you.

My mornings miss you,
my evenings seeks you
Where were you all these days,
why you werein there to wipe my tears.

Fear of future is worse than pain of the past
still i bother the least, coz u are there

even seconds are too long to miss you
I want to hold your hands & walk a mile
dont want to miss u, even a while

Thursday, 2 September 2010

Sri Krishna Jayanthi

After very long writing a post again..

New job.. New environment and new stuffs to learn out.. Life is different now..
Yes.. i am into Dell now..

Good environment and very flexibile manager i have ever seen..

This is what i expected.. Hope to give my best in work part as well as be able to spend time with DD.. Yesterday was Krishna Jayanthi.. As it was leave for me decided to celebrate it in a grand way..

Wanna put Krishna make up to DD but somehow missed in the last minute as she didnt have enough hair..

Mom slogged from morning in preparing the necessary things.. i did help her in making murukku and seedai.. Sankar came by eve and we started with pooja.. It is very nice to have such a celebrations as part of our life.. its completely relaxing and pretty good change of mind as well.. Good to keep up our culture..

The time after pooja was the nice time.. Very nice to have Savitha's new born to be the first one (Krishan) to enter home.. Was very happy to invite them and serve them sweets..

Later all the neighbour childrens came.. It was a nice occasion.. DD was pretty happy.. The krishnan paadham came out very well and was very nice celebration.. Here is DD's pics after many months

Wednesday, 28 April 2010

Back Street Boys

Got to hear this song after so long... My all time favourite..

I really miss you, there's something I gotta say

The things we did, the things we said
Keep comin' back to me and make me smile again
You showed me how to face the truth
Everything that's good in me I owe to you

Though the distance that's between us
Now may seem to be too far
It will never separate us
Deep inside, I know you are

Chorus:
Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've got to say goodbye
I know you would be forever in my life (yeah!)
Never gone

No, no, no, no

I walk along these empty streets
There is not a second you're not here with me
The love you gave, the grace you've shown
Will always give me strength and be my cornerstone

(Somehow) somehow you found a way
To see the best I have in me
As long as time goes on
I swear to you that you will be

Chorus:
Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close (always close), everyday (everyday yeah)
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've got to say goodbye
I know you would be forever in my life (in my life, yeah)

Never gone (gone from me)
If there's one thing I believe (I believe)
I will see you somewhere down the road again
(I will see you somewhere, somewhere, somewhere, somewhere)

(Never gone) Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close (always close, always close), everyday (everyday, everyday)
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've got to say goodbye (yeah, yeah)
I know you would be forever in my life

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are (in my heart is where you are)
Always close (always close), everyday (everyday)
Every step along the way

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are

Tuesday, 27 April 2010

How does care matters in ones life???

How are you dear?? howz things going in ur end?
Why do we feel good when we hear these kinda lines from someone?

Did u have ur meal? Go and have proper food on time??
Though we feed ourselves for our hunger we long for these words isnt it??

Dont worry dear.. everything would be for good.. u will succeed..
How does these simple words gear up all our energy.. whats the magic beside that??

Take care of your health dear.. sleep on time..
Why is this the best medicine when you feel ill??

Love you so much dear.. will be there for you always..
Why these words values the world for oneself??

Dont strain urself dear.. i will do it for you..
How these concern makes you feel great???

Come home soon dear.. i am waiting for you..
what makes to rush up to reach home??

Miss you so much dear.. feel like seeing you..
Why do we wish to be near the loved one when we hear so??

IS this is what is called as care?? If it is so then we are we so stingy to show it to our loved ones? why do we meagerly use these words.. why are we not generous in saying that we care for someone.. It makes both feel great.. Giving love is the best feeling than getting it.. If one has not experienced it till now.. Try it today.. Try it this minute.. You shall fell the bang on experience...

Tuesday, 20 April 2010

Heavy Heart and Light Brain

I really wonder how these two tiny organs plays its importance in a persons life..
How it manages the overall mood of a person..
How it organizes things to do..
How it directs to tackle problems..
How it relates to manage things..
How it takes over the knowledge..
How it reacts to things..
How it decides on which is right and wrong..

Tough it is said brain is the one which controls the overall moves of a person, It is the heart which dominates in its action most of the times..

Many a times for many a things though we prefer brain to take the role of decision maker it is the heart which wins the bid.. But one thing of sure is that the decision taken from heart and not the brain may not always be correct.. It may end up in quite many troubles..

We.. emotional idiots leave the right to heart and end up in hurting oneself.. Tough too small.. shall feel the heaviness of huge mountain..

Brain though it works round the clock, it does it work on its own way causing no hurdle to anyone.. The work it does is bulk but we always feel it light..

Which is taking precedence in ones life makes much a difference.. If a person knows to control them then on no day it would be a heavy heart and a light brain..

How to say how much i love u...


You mean the world to me
You are everything to me
Just to hold you close
To feel your loving embrace
Makes me smile and feel loved inside
You have my heart and shall keep it forever
You have the password to my soul
You are the missing piece of the puzzle that shall make me whole
I love you with all my heart
Words cannot describe how i feel
To be apart from you for just a short time
Tears away at me inside
But as soon as i see your beautiful face
And just have one bittersweet kiss
The pain inside me vanishes and is no more
I feel you are my one true love
My reason to live on
Without you I would break
Just shatter into pieces
And float away in the wind
You are the reason that i wake each day
So I hope and pray that you will stay..

Friday, 5 March 2010

Character Difference of a Men and Women

There are some things which comes out in nature.. There is no point in cribbing on it.. Though it is easy to narrate its damn tough to implement in one's life..

Though we say guys and girls are same in all means there are many characters and behavious which makes a vast difference between a women and men..

One thing which everyone shall accept is..
Guys are materialistic.. girls are emotional.. (Not all)

Guys always think to earn for thier family for a wealthy life..
Wanna get things to make thier family members happy..
Wanna bring the family to a good standard in the society..
Very Sincere in thier work..
Very curious in thier decision..
Much firm in thier thoughts..
Very stingy in expressing love..

Girls are oppisite in all means..

They want thier spouse to spend time and be with her more than thier money..
She does things to make him happy.. Dresses for him.. cooks what he like.. etc.,
Thinks of how to bring the family to a good position (not based on wealth but on social activities)
Girls are equally sincere to men in work.. but more than anything family is important for them..
Very decisive not to hurt others even if it bothers them..
Very much fluctuating in deciding things
They express love the most and expect the same from partner..

A thing which look very silly for a man means a world to a women...
Deciding on which is silly and which is valuable differs from a man and women


These are few of the habbitual difference between men and women.. Even it is all acceptable and everyone is aware of it..

No one can stop the following things,

Husband always coming late home when wife expects him to be near her..
Wife always cribbing on he being workaholic..
Men love thier kids until and unless they dont trouble them.. they have very less patience to be with them for long..
Men love to get things done at home but without taking any responsibilities on thier own..
Women takes it more to the extend she cannot fulfill all..


This article is not to say that Men are arrogant and women are soft.. There are few facts though everyone is aware no one is ready to accept it..

Miss you sweety... :-(

Got to have a look at a blog today..

I thought its only me who does this kinda blogging to record the stages of my cute princess.. great to see one more..

Felt like writing one for my dear..

The thing which is more clear on this is mothers feeling towards thier child is same for whoever it is..

Let it be any conversation.. Let it be any thought..
Let it be any place i visit..Let it be any things i see..
i started relating everything with my sweety..

Whenever i speak something.. i started adding up a phrase as.. "Hey u know what my  daughter did today??.. blah blah blah...

Whenever i think of doing something.. i always end up in doing something for her..
Let it be getting her a toy.. Or what can be done to make her eat.. etc.,

Whenever i see some place.. visit some place..
my thoughts roam around on how it  would have been if Divya is around me.. She started enjoying places now.. She loves to go for an outing.. Miss u sweety..
After tiring day of work am not able to take u for a walk everyday.. Am so sorry for that...

Whenever i see a girl of paapa's age i start noticing the kind of dress and style of them and imagine how Divya will look on the same.. What if i buy her this.. Will she be like this when she is grown up??

My mind is full of her.. Even when i work splash of her thoughts run around me always.. Love u so much sweety.. missing u very much..

I was not there to enjoy her first crawl...
I was not there to hear her uttering her first word "Amma"....
I was not there to cherish her first walk..
I was not there to see all her mischieves..

I wonder whether she miss me as i do.. Thank god that she had got her thaatha paati to play with.. to care her with..  I am very unlucky that i couldnt stay with you dear all the day long to care you..

Tears pierce out whenever i think of this.. Hope she will understand this.. Hope she will feel my love.. Hope she will not long for love.. Luv u so much sweetheart.. i dont know how to express it to you..

My tears will show my love towards you... Miss u so much dear...

Friday, 22 January 2010

Veeta Katti paaru... Kalyanam Panni paaru...

Periyavunga ezhudhi vacha pazha mozhi ovvondrum anubhavathaal ezhudhi vachirukkanga... We realize those only when we really get into it. There is a very famous saying as

"Veeta Katti Paaru.. Kalyanatha Panni Paaru.."

We are really recognizing the pain with which it is said. Though it is a sweet pain for some good cause, they have really meant these words..

It was a dream of us to build our own house (Each and every one have this dream). We initially started searching for a site to construct an individual house. Myself and Sankar was not interested in owning an apartment. we wanted to construct a small and cute house for our own choice. We searched for around two months and noticed that most of the sites in bangalore are not the registered ones and lots of forgery that was done in real estate. On no way we wanna give a chance for that to happen in our case and as no one at home
knows to speak Kannada its tough to manage if it is a individual house. And we cannot commit ourself more on the construction in the other state.

Later point of time we decided that for the situation now, apartment is the fine choice and the safest choice. Our initial budget was not more than 25L. We searched in and around the places we are in. We were surprised to see the cost and the construction quality of many of the apartments. Out criteria of search was very simple, it should not be outside the city, should be easily commutable and should have a school and hospital nearby. The search for apartment went around for 3 months and Sankar was not satisfied with any of the ones. I was ready to compromise with something but Sankar was very specific in his needs.

We got to see an advertisement on the apartment for sale in Koramangala 8th block. Sankar was very much interested on the place and he was already staying in that area. Koramangala is one of the Posh location in bangalore. We had a look into the apartment and it was in a good location and the apartment was in the bazaar. Though we can see some slums near by the location of the apartment was quite good. The price even was not too high for that area. We managed to select a small apartment as we dont wanna get more loan.

We booked the flat by June 2009 and the builder promised that the flat would be ready by Jan. These were the time in which we understood how tough is building a house. Though all the pain is taken care by the builder. Myself and sankar was very much tired and engaged in looking after the work over the weekends. Sankar wanted the best of all things in a affordable price and we planned and selected things as per our wish.

Made what all the modifications we wanted in our flat. Took away the balconies in kitchen as well as the master bed room. Made the kitchen wall half open. wanted to have a breakfast table there. Changed the provision of TV cabinet to the opposite side. We made the changes what all we felt to look good. The block work completion was over by august and the builder started the plastering work soon. The fixing of the window frames and door frames was done and the plastering of the flat was over by Oct. Our next decision
would be the interior. we decided not to spend more on the interior but wanted to do the best. Firstly we planned to bring people from Karur. Later we decided to book someone here.


Meantime the loan was released from the bank after lots of trouble. It was very painful for us to get the loan from CanFin homes though we went through a mediator called Nagaraju. The delay in loan processing lead to many misunderstanding between the builder and us. The loan was released sometime in oct and we started with paying the interest alone.


The next work to start is the tiling work. Initially we decided to put the tiles which buidler is offering. but after viewing some of the sample flats with the tiles which he used we wanna go out for the tiles as per our wish. We concluded to go to Nitco tiles as we felt branded ones would be of good quality and we decided upon our tiles for the two bath room. Even this tile selection got lot of confusion  as the tile delivery was not on time and tile count mismatch and tile color mismatch etc..

Dad supervised the house during th tiling work. The bathroom's were the first place to get tiled up and it came out good. Next was the floor tile, even that came out as we expected. Somehow our selection went wrong in the Kitchen tile. It looked good when we saw it in the showroom but it didt come out well as we expected once the plastering was done. Even sankar's parents were not happy with the tiles. To compensate that we selected the borders for it and it became quite wide and the place for cupboard work was reduced.


Siva, our next flat owner became a very good friend of us and we enquired him on the interior person. He was familiar with a guy who did interior for his friend and he trusted that his work was good. We did call the person for estiamting our house for the work we asked for. He said the price to be around 2.5 Lakhs. we felt it to be too high and beyond our budget and we roamed around to see other peoples. But looking into the workmanship of other carpenters, we felt even if the cost is high the work would be good if we do with  the interior named Amith and called him back for the deal. The deal was made ok and we put the agreement for the interior work in a day or two.

Sankar though he does things as per his wish he always gives more values to others view on the things he does. The same goes with the house. He always asks others whether the flat is good. Is it looking so small.. like that and get worried on hearing others views. I always say him to do things as per his wish as we are the peoples who are  gonna stay in the home and not the others. He always feels bad for the kitchen tile selection. But i felt it was ok. once the cupboard work is done it would be looking good.

The putty work for the house was done in short time and the window doors were fixed. The main door was placed. We did have pooja for the same sometime in November. Athai, maama, thambi and Rathi came from karur and the pooja went fine placing the main door in a good time putting all the navarathnam and things underneth.

The cupboard work started in december. When the basic frame work was started we felt the cupboard work is very less and doubted whether this storage would be sufficient for keeping our things (we still have that thought). Selected the sheet color. I preffered to have it as per sankar's wish as his selection would always be good. The T.V panel came out very nice. The cupboard for both the rooms were done and we decided to have an extra shelf in the kitchen for the Oven. Once the lamination work was done with the combination of sheets we selected it came out very well. The house looked neat and the cupboard work didnt supress the size of the house.

Next was the decision on the house warming. I wanted to have it in January as it was Thai maasam. Sankar was not at all interested to have it in jan as the house work was not compelte and he felt reluctant to call his office peoples to have a look at the flat. I was not bothered on all those things. My only intension was to have it on a good day as we need to spend the rest of our life there and paapa has to be brought up in that house. Atlast Sankar accepted to have it in January as decided during the trip to Karur on new year.

The house warming day was decided and i wanted to have pathirikkai printed as this was the first occasion we ourself is doing and it ended up in lot of problems. Atlast all the problem was sorted out and the pathirikai was distributed to our close relatives and friends. Sankar and me roamed around to invite people and arrange for lodging and lunch for the peoples to come in. We booked rooms in Sri Grand Krishna a posh n neat hotel and arranged food in Mouli's catering. It was pongal that time and we celebrated pongal in our house in bangalore for the first time. This was the first pongal with Divya. Pooja at home went on well. Ordered for the new stove and chimney. Wanted to get the chimney fixed on that day but somehow they were not able to make it as it was pongal.

House warming is on Jan 18th but we decided to bring people here a day before and send them for sight seeing. As decided everyone started by 16th night (friday) and reached bangalore by 17th morning(saturday). Arranged for sight seeing that morning in Sri Sakthi travels. Received all of them that morning and rushed to catch the bus after getting freshed up. We cooked and packed the lunch for that noon as they may not like the food of karnataka. Jana maama and maami was about to reach bangalore. I was very happy that they are coming to our house warming. Received them on the way and welcomed them home. They decided to stay at home rather than in hotel.

We collected up all the necessary things needed for the pooja. Most of them were brought from Karur itself which made things very easy. Listed out the missed out things and we brought all the fruits needed from Madiwala market. Dad and maama went to City market to get the flowers needed. Atlast everything was brought and things are in place. Ayyar for  the next day pooja reached bangalore late and booked a room for them to stay. We are supposed to have a pooja on Jan 17th night and made things ready and started to our new home. We picked up the poojaries on the way and reached home. After reaching home they made thigns ready and we need to do vastu pooja then. We started rushing for things here and there and it was all arranged  up. The pooja started around 10 P.M. They did pooja in a good way and Ramireddy (the builder's supervisor) was with us doing all the things which masthiri was supposed to do. Vastu pooja was done on the corridor thanking all the grahas and Vasthu bhagavan for the land and to purify the place. It was almost 11 P.M when all the pooja was over. We turned abck home and rushed to sleep as we need to get up early and was damn tired.

People who went for sight seeing reached very late as thier shopping and stuffs took lot of time, that night we didnt have anyone to help us and it was all we managed to do things. Ran between the ground floor and 2nd floor hundred's of times. Intimated them to get ready by 5 the next morning for the pooja.

We kept alarm by 3 A.M but was very tired to get up. Athai was the first person to take bath and get ready and next was my mom. I decided to go next as i need to get Divya ready. Wore pattu saree and took things needed for Divya(milk, dress etc.,) by the time everyone was ready sankar lost his patience and started shouting as it was very late. We left Dad and Jana maama at home and started first. Asked them to come in auto later. Picked the poojaries on the way and reached our new flat.

The pooja was started and we both were asked to sit in the pooja and it went on smoothly. divya was with us for sometime and then started crying due to the smoke with come out of the yaaga kuntam. we were asked to change the dress, the wore the new pattu saree and sankar in pattu vetti sattati.. he was looking very pretty in that. i love to see him that way. Wore new dress to divya as well. Milk was boiled in good time and We sat in the pooja and after 1-2 hours the pooja was over. Got good money from relatives and morning breakfast was ready by that time.

One  by one everyone started with thier breakfast and it was good. Jana maama and Maami wanna leave as maama was not well. Gave them send off and sent dad along wit them to house to take thier luggages. All the relatives had thier breakfast. Sankar and me was waiting for our friends to clear off the breakfast buffet. Senthil came first and then comes Siva, Prabu and saravanan. Dalou rushed in the last moment and gave the gift and turned back without having the bfast.

Started clearing things and cleaning the house. Our office friends are supposed to come by 12.30 that noon. Sankar and me sat for sometime after a long tiring day and started setting up the things ready.

Sankar's office friends reached first and they had a visit at the flat.Sankar was very curious to hear thier comments and it was all positive. Sankar started with the lunch and all his office friends had thier lunch. Meanwhile Divya and Jyothi reached the flat and received them to the flat. They looked around the flat
and in shorttime my teammates from oracle came in. Received them and took them to the flat. It was all in a mess at that time. Dont know whom to receive and with whom to go. Was scared whether will miss to treat someone well. Offered lunch for the friends in office and i joined with them. Relatives started having thier lunch then. I was very happy that Karthik and Dupati joined for lunch. Sankar and me was very relaxed only then that the function went on well and offered the remaining lunch to the labours in the flat.

In sometime People from karur started packing up things to go back home. Someone need to stay at home. Sankar and me decided to stay that night. I was damn tired as i climbed the stairs so many times. Was surprised to see sankar active as he was a weak person. Reached home by 3 that evening. All helped to get the things reach home and settled up the things. Sankar's relatives started back to karur. We rested for sometime. Evening wanted to settle up money for the people from whom we rented the tent and chairs. We went to flat to meet Kailash and Siva his office friends and turned back home soon.

After dinner, we dont wanna let divya stay in the new home as she may not be comfortable sleeping in the mat in the cold breeze. I packed up things like mat and bedsheet to stay there that night. We both wanted to sleep badly as we were very tired. Arranged up things to sleep but was very cold and couldnt sleep at all. Spoke upon things for sometime and slept as such. When we woke up it was 7.30 and rushed to home locking the flat.

Still more to go.. May take two more months for the completion.